Sometimes I wonder how little things add up and how each step determines the possibilities for the next step we can take. I wonder about what makes us choose the direction in which we walk.
I marvel at the wonder of the clues around us every day. Each day we are born. Each day we die to sleep.
Between those two fixed moments in time is our life. I wonder at how closely our use of the daily hours reflects and predicts our use of this time between release from our mother’s wombs to the last sleep from this world.
Imagine it
It is not uncommon to want more time for living when they have only a few months left to live than they have done during their preceding years.
Each day is a lifetime
At night, we die, and each morning we are born. We get so many opportunities to live the lives we choose. So many chances, but we do not see them. We miss their importance and the potential they present. We do not see their value.
I think about that, and it scares me
It feels like a heavy load. On the other hand, every night it gets me to reflect on the day on how it is about to end. It makes me more aware of how I use my time, and you know what? There is a lot of good that I do, and a lot of good happens to me. It is only when I take time to reflect on my day that I realise this.
How do I reflect?
Each day I take 5 minutes to note the things I have and over time, I see the pattern of my life. I can see what I give the most time to, and it’s what I value. And it feels good.
I appreciate the little things which take 5 minutes but mean so much. I appreciate the calls I get from friends and family. It spurs me on to reach out to those people I treasure.
I see more clearly the things that are important but on which I do not spend time. It brings me to the crossroads of honesty about what I truly value. It makes me aware of things I avoid and the things that bring me the most pleasure and satisfaction. I see the direction to which my energy naturally and most frequently flows.
I get a glimpse of my story, but what is more, I get to see tomorrow as an opportunity to live a new life and add to the picture of my identity.
It seems so obvious now. Each day is so precious. When the days stack up, I get to learn about myself. I see the things that take too much effort and which I cannot sustain, so I question why I think they are important. Most of the time, I find they do not align with my values. They are mainly fears and insecurities … ideas of what should be done or how I should do things.
It leaves me to choose anew the direction I want my life to take. It frees me from the advertisements and social pressures. It allows me to choose to be me because, over time, I get to see that I cannot sustain trying to be anything other than myself. All it does is frustrate and rob me of my peace.
Track the days
Value them as new beginnings. You would want to be true of your life, so live each day, true to yourself. And enjoy the show that is you. Chances are you will be pleasantly surprised by the amount of good you invest into each day. Don’t be surprised if you do one thing differently tomorrow. I hope you see how wonderful and capable you are. Be kind to yourself and enjoy being you.